From the window of their small apartment in a quiet part of Ahmedabad, the lights of the city could be seen at night. Their two children were asleep. Anjali was lying in bed too, but sleep was far from her eyes.<\/p>\n
Siddharth was beside her.<\/p>\n
Yet somehow, he felt far away.<\/p>\n
For the past few months, their nights had become like this.<\/p>\n
Sometimes Siddharth remained occupied with his phone and went to sleep late. At other times, he would lie slightly away from Anjali. Initially, she thought it was simply tiredness.<\/p>\n
After all, they had been married for seven years. Two children, household responsibilities, work and everyday pressures\u2014she believed that some changes in a relationship were natural as life became more demanding.<\/p>\n
But slowly, Anjali began to feel that this was not simply about tiredness.<\/p>\n
Whenever she tried to get closer to Siddharth, he seemed to withdraw.<\/p>\n
Sometimes she wondered whether he no longer found her as attractive as he once had.<\/p>\n
That thought gradually began to take root in her mind.<\/p>\n
The first three years of their marriage had been among the happiest years of their lives.<\/p>\n
There had been conversations, laughter, affection and a natural attraction between Siddharth and Anjali. Even after tiring days, they tried to make time for each other.<\/p>\n
Then their second child was born.<\/p>\n
Anjali\u2019s life began revolving almost entirely around the children. Household work, childcare, lack of sleep and constant responsibilities left her exhausted.<\/p>\n
By the time she reached the bed at night, her body was already tired.<\/p>\n
Siddharth was also dealing with stress from work. Many nights, he remained awake alone.<\/p>\n
Initially, he started watching pornography on his phone as a way to distract himself for a short while.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not a big deal,\u201d he would tell himself.<\/p>\n
But gradually, those few minutes became longer.<\/p>\n
Then it became a daily habit.<\/p>\n
Eventually, he realized that during those lonely nights, he had begun to depend on his phone for sexual stimulation.<\/p>\n
The stimulation offered by the screen felt easy. There was no hesitation, no emotional conversation, no expectations and, most importantly, no fear of disappointing anyone.<\/p>\n
Returning to a real relationship began to feel much more complicated.<\/p>\n
One night, Anjali finally gathered the courage to ask,<\/p>\n
\u201cSiddharth, why are you becoming distant from me?\u201d<\/p>\n
Siddharth remained silent.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs there something wrong with me?\u201d Anjali asked quietly.<\/p>\n
The question broke something inside him.<\/p>\n
He knew that Anjali was blaming herself.<\/p>\n
But the reality was more complicated than that.<\/p>\n
He lowered his eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnjali\u2026 it\u2019s not about you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen what is it?\u201d<\/p>\n
The room remained silent for a while.<\/p>\n
For the first time, Siddharth opened up about what had been happening.<\/p>\n
He admitted that he had gradually begun spending a considerable amount of time watching pornography. He could experience sexual arousal while watching content on the screen, but when he was close to Anjali, he often became anxious that his body might not respond as he expected.<\/p>\n
That fear itself had become another source of pressure.<\/p>\n
Anjali remained silent for a long time.<\/p>\n
She was hurt.<\/p>\n
But for the first time, she also understood that believing \u201cSiddharth does not want me anymore\u201d might not be the whole truth.<\/p>\n
The following day, they decided that they would not continue hiding the problem.<\/p>\n
They sought advice through sexual counseling.<\/p>\n
They were helped to understand that such a situation should not automatically be attributed to a single cause. Long-term stress, lack of sleep, emotional distance in a relationship, performance anxiety and problematic pornography use can all play a role in a person\u2019s sexual experience.<\/p>\n
Siddharth needed to understand his habit rather than simply feel ashamed of it.<\/p>\n
Anjali also needed to stop questioning her own attractiveness or her worth as a woman.<\/p>\n
An important part of counseling was learning to listen to each other instead of blaming one another.<\/p>\n
They decided to gradually reduce Siddharth\u2019s problematic phone use, spend more intentional time together at night and avoid putting pressure on each other for physical intimacy.<\/p>\n
The first few weeks did not bring an instant transformation.<\/p>\n
Some nights Siddharth still felt anxious.<\/p>\n
On some nights, Anjali\u2019s old doubts returned.<\/p>\n
But there was something different now.<\/p>\n
There was no longer silence between them.<\/p>\n
One night, after the children had fallen asleep, Siddharth placed his phone on the table.<\/p>\n
Anjali sat beside him.<\/p>\n
There were no expectations.<\/p>\n
No test to pass.<\/p>\n
No pressure that \u201ceverything must be normal tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n
There were simply two people who had once become lonely while living beside each other.<\/p>\n
Siddharth gently held Anjali\u2019s hand.<\/p>\n
She said nothing.<\/p>\n
But the tears that appeared in her eyes that night carried something more than sadness.<\/p>\n
There was a little hope too.<\/p>\n
Their problem had not disappeared in one night.<\/p>\n
But they had crossed an important distance\u2014the distance of hiding things from each other.<\/p>\n
Feeling embarrassed about difficulties in married or sexual life can be natural. But keeping the problem hidden for a long time can increase confusion, anxiety and emotional distance.<\/p>\n
Difficulties with sexual intimacy can have more than one contributing factor. Relationship dynamics, emotional stress, sleep, lifestyle, psychological factors and problematic use of sexual content may all need to be considered individually.<\/p>\n
Instead of immediately blaming either partner, understanding the situation together is often more important.<\/p>\n
If such difficulties continue repeatedly, cause significant distress or begin affecting the relationship, appropriate medical or sexological assessment may be helpful.<\/p>\n
Depending on the individual situation, sexual counseling, couple counseling, psychological support or other individualized treatment may be considered. The appropriate approach varies from person to person.<\/p>\n
Siddharth and Anjali\u2019s story does not provide one universal answer for every couple.<\/p>\n
But it does remind us of something important:<\/p>\n
When a problem is hidden, distance can grow. When there is understanding and communication, a way forward can begin to appear.<\/strong><\/p>\n
\n\n\n Dr. Nikul Patel (B.A.M.S.)\n <\/h3>\n
\n\n 307, 3rd Floor, Shalin Complex, Above Farki Lassi,\n Krishnabag Char Rasta, Maninagar, Ahmedabad \u2013 380008
\n\n Timing:<\/strong> 10:00 AM to 1:00 PM and 3:00 PM to 6:30 PM |\n Saturday\u2013Sunday: Closed<\/strong>
\n\n \n \ud83d\udccd Clinic Location \u2014 Google Maps\n <\/a>\n\n <\/div>\n\n